Confession Time and Time to Take Back my Life.


I posted the following a couple of weeks ago on Facebook. Since then, I have had several people suggest I share my journey through a blog or other form of social media. I’m not sure how I feel about it, but I do want to document it for me…so I might as well share. Its a little strange using this forum, as this blog has been a place where I have shared recipes, a LOT of recipes, over the years. But I am comfortable here. Hopefully, this works….

 

 

 

So… I am the queen of doing things the hard way. Kind of irritated with myself right now. I have 3 relatively major medical things going on right now…2 of which could have been avoided if I would have controlled my weight.
Confession time… I have weighed over 300 pounds for over 20 years… a couple of years ago I got down to 285 but have regained all I lost. I know I had a family history of diabetes and I know that I have a genetic factor for blood clots. I know that losing weight and exercising regularly helps with both of them.
This summer, I have gotten the 2×4 to the back of the head wake-up call. And its time to get real. I have diabetes which I CAN control with diet and losing weight. I am going to have to deal with the faulty veins in my legs… compression socks and exercise and weightloss were today’s prescription. And I will be having a hysterectomy in May…and I need to lose 50+ pounds in order to make the surgery less complicated.
The doctor today suggested bariatric surgery but I’d really rather not. I don’t want to be on meds and I don’t want surgery unless I have no other choice. I still have a choice for now.
Why am I sharing this on Facebook? Because it motivates me… And because there are several of you who need to know all this anyway. And because I am going to need a lot more support than I ever have before because I HAVE to do this. It is no longer optional.
Thank you FB family for letting me vent. I’m not depressed or angry…just feeling the need to get serious about something I should have taken serious long ago.

Changes


This has been an interesting last few months. A lot of very positive changes in both my personal life and in my professional life. After several years of recovering and trying to decide which direction I should go, I think I have found the right path 🙂

The biggest change in my life is finding love. I had pretty much decided that I wasn’t going to do the relationship thing again. I met Len at the start of Christmas break and it was like coming home. It is definitely an ongoing adventure but I feel like I have found someone I can spend the rest of my life with.

Another big change happened at work. After 15 years of teaching elementary and middle school English and reading, I made the change to middle and high school Social Studies. I got my secondary license and taught 7th and 9th grade New Mexico history this spring. This fall, I will add AP Government. My BA was in history and political science, so this is an exciting change!

As an extension to the NM History, I created a new blog. I travel around the state a lot and take pictures. So I thought I should set up a place to share all things New Mexico. You can check it out at New Mexico~Home, History, Life.

Finally, I am continuing to write. My second novel is about half done. AND… I have a short story coming out in an anthology in September. I will keep you all posted on that!

Absolutely loving my life right now!

Fumbling Through Life


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Sometimes I feel my life is a lot like one of those football plays where the ball is fumbled and then slips through the hands of the players trying to pick it up and then gets kicked and then pops out from between the players trying to pick it up until it lands out of bounds.

Just when I feel like I’m getting a handle on things, it slips away and bounces off in a different direction. And it doesn’t help when the missteps are the same damn things I have been doing since I was a kid. Once, just once… I’d love for things to come out of my mouth as cool as they sound in my head.

I guess I’m still that awkward weird little kid in the back of the room.